Blood-Red-1988

I think about him everyday and I can't stand it. My heart was broken when I found out that everything he had said was lies. So why do I still love him?? It's take all of my strength to say now when he calls and asks me to hang out. I do not how I manage to do it. I cry so hard when I finally hang up the phone. I know that he hurt me and that nothing good could ever come from us bring together but I can't forget him. I left town this pass summer to try and forget everything I can home for one weekend and who was the first person I seen the second I got back in town? it was him and he was with her. It kills me everytime I seen them together. My

Sooo I'm in school bored to tears not doing my work but thats nothing new.. Me and Deanna are sitting here talking about our christmas party we're having on the 21th.. I'm soooo pumped for reasons other then the whole gift thing. Woot!!!! Right now I'm in the middle of re-doing my apartment which means sandpaper and paint everywhere.. I don't have a single christmas thing put out yet and it'll more then likely stay that way until the christmas eve. I have work and tons of other things to do so I don't have time to worry about stupid christmas stuff like putting up and tree or anything.. BTW I hate christmas I think it's way to much bs for one